| I need air, she thoughtI
need to get out of this house, away from all of themShe could hear
the frightened voices of the children in the kitchenHer skin felt
raw with nervesShe picked up her skirts and ranOutside the
morning air was fresh and coolScarlett breathed deeply, tasting the
freshnessA light breeze lifted the hair that clung to her sweaty
neckWhen had she last done her hundred strokes with the
hairbrush?
She couldn't rememberMammy would be furiousOh- She put the
knuckles of her right hand into her mouth to contain her grief and
stumbled through the tall grasses of the pasture, down the hill to the
woods knock off gucci bags that bordered the riverThe high-topped pines smelled sharply
sweet; they shaded a soft thick mat of bleached needles, shed over
hundreds of yearsWithin their shelter, Scarlett was alone, invisible
from the houseShe crumpled wearily onto the cushioned ground,
then
settled herself in a sitting position with a tree trunk at her back
She had to think; there must be some way to salvage her life from the
ruins; she refused to believe differentBut she couldn't keep her
mind from jumping aroundShe was so confused, so tiredShe'd
been
tired beforeWorse tired than thisWhen she had to get to Tara from
Atlanta, with the Yankee army vintage cartier ladies watch on all sides, she hadn't let tired stop
herWhen she had to forage for food all over the countryside, she
hadn't given up because her legs and arms felt like dead weights
pulling on herWhen she picked cotton until her hands were raw,
when
she hitched herself to the plow like she was a mule, when she had to
find strength to keep going in spite of everything, she hadn't given up
because she was tiredShe wasn't going to give up nowIt wasn't in
her to give upShe stared ahead, facing all her demonsRhett's leaving her, saying that their
marriage was deadThat was
what she had to meet head-onShe heard his voice: wholesale rolex watches "Nothing's
changed
It couldn't be true! But it wasShe had to find a way to get him
backShe'd always been able to get any man she wanted, and Rhett
was a
man like any other man, wasn't he? No, he wasn't like any other man,
and that's why she wanted himShe shivered, suddenly afraid
Suppose
that this time she didn't win?
She had always won, one way or anotherShe'd always gotten what
she
wanted, somehowAbove her head a bluejay cried
raucously
Scarlett looked up, heard a second jeering cry"Leave me alone," she
shoutedThe bird flew away, a whirr of gaudy blue
She had to think, to remember what Rhett had saidNot this morning
or
last tiffany canada night or whenever it was that Mammy diedWhat did he say at
our
house, the night he left Atlanta? He talked on and on, explaining
thingsHe was so calm, so horribly patient, the way you can be with
people you don't care enough about to get mad at them
Her mind seized on an almost-forgotten sentence, and she forgot her
exhaustionShe had found what she neededYes, yes, she
remembered
it clearlyRhett had offered her a divorceThen, after her furious
rejection of the offer, he had said itScarlett closed her eyes,
hearing his voice in her head"I'll come back often enough to keep
gossip downShe hadn't won yet, but there was chanel watches a
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