My dad loved to get away
from everythingAnd he...
- Posted at 9:49 AM on Thursday, March 11, 2010 by weipingqin396
My dad loved to get away
from everythingAnd he didn't care much about conventionHe never bothered to find out who
the land actuallybelonged to or file permits or any of that pesky stuff Jared laughs, throwing
his head backThe sun dances off the blond bits in his hair?Officially, this place doesn't exist
Convenient, isn't it?? Without seeming to think about it, he reaches out and takes my hand
My skin burns where it meets hisIt feels better than good, but it sets off a strange aching in my
chest
He is forever touching me this way, always seeming to need to reassure himself that I am here
Does he realize what it does to me, the simple tiffany necklace and bracelet pressure of his warm palm next to mine? Does his
pulse jump in his veins, too? Or is he just happy to not be alone anymore?
He swings our arms as we walk beneath a little stand of cottonwood trees, their green so vivid
against the red that it plays tricks on my eyes, confusing my focusHe is happy here, happier
than in other placesThe feeling is still unfamiliar
He hasn't kissed me since that first night, when I screamed, finding the scar on his neckDoes
he not want to kiss me again? Should I kiss him? What if he doesn't like that?
He looks down at me and smiles, the lines around his eyes crinkling into little websI wonder if
he is as new louis vuitton bags handsome as I think he is, or if it's just that he's the only person left in the whole world
besides Jamie and me
No, I don't think that's itHe really is beautiful
?What are you thinking, Mel?? he asks?You seem to be concentrating on something very
important
I shrug, and my stomach flutters?It's beautiful hereBut then, isn't home always beautiful??
?Home I repeat the word quietly
?Your home, too, if you want it It seems like every mile I've walked in the past three years has been toward this
placeI never want to leave, though I know we'll have toFood doesn't grow on treesNot in
the desert, at least
He squeezes my hand, and my heart punches fendi handbags canada against my ribsIt's just like pain, this pleasure
There was a blurring sensation as Melanie skipped ahead, her thoughts dancing through the hot
day until hours after the sun had fallen behind the red canyon wallsI went along, almost
hypnotized by the endless road stretching ahead of me, the skeletal bushes flying by with
mind-numbing sameness
I peek into the one narrow little bedroomThe full-size mattress is only inches away from the
rough stone walls on either side
It gives me a deep, rich sense of joy to see Jamie asleep on a real bed, his head on a soft pillow
His lanky arms and legs sprawl out, leaving little room for me where I am meant fake chanel to sleepHe is
so much bigger in reality than the way I see him in my headAlmost ten?soon he won't be a
child at allExcept that he will always be a child to me
Jamie breathes evenly, sleeping soundThere is no fear in his dream, for this moment at least
I shut the door quietly and go back to the small couch where Jared waits
?Thank you,? I whisper, though I know shouting the words wouldn't wake Jamie nowThis couch is much too short for youMaybe you should take the bed with Jamie?Mel, you're only a few inches shorter than I amSleep comfortably, for once
Next time I'm out, I'll steal myself a cot or something
I don't like this, for lots of coco chanel jewelry reason
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