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He had seen Miss
CrawfordHe had been invited to see herHe had received a note
from Lady Stornaway to beg him to call; and regarding it as what
was meant to be the last, last interview of friendship, and investing
her with all the feelings of shame and wretchedness which Crawford?s
sister ought to have known, he had gone to her in such a state of
mind, so softened, so devoted, as made it for a few moments impossible
to Fanny?s fears that it should be the lastBut as he proceeded
in his story, these fears were overShe had met him, he said, with a
serious?certainly a serious?even an agitated air; but before he had
been able to speak one intelligible sentence, she had introduced the
subject in a manner which he owned had shocked him??I heard
you were in town,? said she; ?I wanted to see youLet us talk over
this sad businessWhat can equal the folly of our two relations?? I
could not answer, but I believe my looks spoke
Sometimes how quick to feel! With a graver look and voice she then
added, ?I do chanel replica not mean to defend Henry at your sister?s expense So
she began, but how she went on, Fanny, is not fit, is hardly fit to be
repeated to youI cannot recall all her wordsI would not dwell
upon them if I couldTheir substance was great anger at the folly of
eachShe reprobated her brother?s folly in being drawn on by a
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woman whom he had never cared for, to do what must lose him the
woman he adored; but still more the folly of poor Maria, in sacrificing
such a situation, plunging into such difficulties, under the idea
of being really loved by a man who had long ago made his indifference
clearGuess what I must have feltTo hear the woman whom?
no harsher name than folly given! So voluntarily, so freely, so coolly
to canvass it! No reluctance, no horror, no feminine, shall I say, no
modest loathings? This is what the world doesFor where, Fanny,
shall we find a woman whom nature had so richly endowed? Spoilt,
spoilt!?
After a little reflection, he went on with a sort of desperate chanel flap bag in canvas calmness
?I will tell you everything, and then have done for everShe saw
it only as folly, and that folly stamped only by exposureThe want of
common discretion, of caution: his going down to Richmond for the
whole time of her being at Twickenham; her putting herself in the
power of a servant; it was the detection, in short?oh, Fanny! it was
the detection, not the offence, which she reprobatedIt was the imprudence
which had brought things to extremity, and obliged her
brother to give up every dearer plan in order to fly with her?And what,? said Fanny (believing herself required to
speak), ?what could you say??
?Nothing, nothing to be understoodI was like a man stunnedShe
went on, began to talk of you; yes, then she began to talk of you,
regretting, as well she might, the loss of such a?There she spoke
very rationallyBut she has always done justice to you?He has thrown
away,? said she, ?such a woman as he will never see againShe would
have fixed him; she would have made him happy for ever My black chanel handbags dearest
Fanny, I am giving you, I hope, more pleasure than pain by this retrospect
of what might have been?but what never can be nowYou do
not wish me to be silent? If you do, give me but a look, a word, and I
have done
No look or word was given
?Thank God,? said he?We were all disposed to wonder, but it
seems to have been the merciful appointment of Providence that
the heart which knew no guile should not sufferShe spoke of you
with high praise and warm affection; yet, even here, there was alloy,
a dash of evil; for in the midst of it she could exclaim, ?Why would
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not she have him? It is all her faultSimple girl! I shall never forgive
herHad she accepted him as she ought, they might now have been
on the point of marriage, and Henry would have been too happy
and too busy to want any other objectHe would have taken no
pains to be on terms with MrsIt would have all
ended in a regular standing flirtation, in yearly meetings at Sotherton
and Everingham Could you have believed it louis vuitton graffiti bag possible? But the charm
is broken
?Cruel!? said Fanny, ?quite cruelAt such a moment to give way
to gaiety, to speak with lightness, and to you! Absolute cruelty
?Cruelty, do you call it? We differ thereNo, hers is not a cruel
natureI do not consider her as meaning to wound my feelingsThe
evil lies yet deeper: in her total ignorance, unsuspiciousness of there
being such feelings; in a perversion of mind which made it natural
to her to treat the subject as she didShe was speaking only as she
had been used to hear others speak, as she imagined everybody else
would speakHers are not faults of temperShe would not voluntarily
give unnecessary pain to any one, and though I may deceive
myself, I cannot but think that for me, for my feelings, she would?
Hers are faults of principle, Fanny; of blunted delicacy and a corrupted,
vitiated mindPerhaps it is best for me, since it leaves me so
little to regretGladly would I submit to all the
increased pain of losing her, rather than have to think of her as I vintage cartier ladies watch
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