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After the rain, Doc would not be sleeping in the hospital anymoreThe first night in the game
room, Sharon had dragged her mattress right next to Doc's without a word of explanation
Perhaps it was Doc's fascination with the Healer that motivated Sharon, though I doubted Doc
had even noticed how pretty the older woman was; his fascination was with her phenomenal
knowledgeOr maybe it was just that Sharon was ready to forgive and forgetI hoped that was
the caseIt would be nice to think that even Sharon and Maggie might be softened over time
I would not stay in the hospital anymore, either
The crucial conversation with Ian might never have taken place if not for JamieMy mouth
would go all dry and my palms would sweat whenever I so much as thought of bringing it up
What if those feelings in the hospital, those few perfect moments of prada made in china certainty right after I'd
awoken in this body, had been illusion? What if I remembered them wrong? I knew that nothing
had changed for me, but how could I be certain Ian felt the same? The body he'd fallen in love
with was still right here!
I expected him to be unsettled?we all wereIf it was difficult for me, a soul used to such
changes, how hard must it be for the humans?
I was working to put the last of the jealousy and the perplexing echoes of the love I still felt for
Jared behind meI didn't need or want themIan was the right partner for meBut sometimes I
would catch myself staring at Jared and feel confusedI'd seen Melanie touch Ian's arm or hand
and then jerk away as if she'd suddenly remembered who she wasEven Jared, who had the least
reason for uncertainty, would occasionally meet my confused gaze with a searching one of prada replica fairy bag his
ownAnd Ian? Of course it must have been hardest for him
We were together nearly as much as Kyle and SunnyIan constantly touched my face and hair,
was always holding my handsBut who did not respond to this body that way? And wasn't it
platonic for everyone else? Why didn't he kiss me again, the way he had that first day?
Maybe he could never love me inside this body, as appealing as it seemed to be to all the other
humans here
That worry was heavy in my heart the night Ian had carried my cot?because it was too heavy
for me?to the big, dark game room
It was raining for the first time in more than six monthsThere were both laughter and
complaints as people shook out their damp bedding and arranged their placesI saw Sharon with
Doc and smiled
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