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Her uncle?s displeasure was terrible to her;...Her uncle?s displeasure was terrible to her; but what could her justification or her gratitude and attachment do for him? His stay must be on Edmund alone She was mistaken, however, in supposing that Edmund gave his father no present painIt was of a much less poignant nature than what the others excited; but Sir Thomas was considering his happiness as very deeply involved in the offence of his sister and friend; cut off by it, as he must be, from the woman whom he had been pursuing with undoubted attachment and strong probability of success; and who, in everything but this despicable brother, would have been so eligible a connexionHe was aware of what Edmund must be suffering on his own behalf, in addition to all the rest, when they were in town: he had seen or conjectured his feelings; and, having reason to think that one interview with Miss Crawford had taken place, from which Edmund derived only increased distress, had been as anxious on that account as on others to get him out of town, and had engaged him in taking Fanny home to her aunt, with a view to his relief and benefit, no less than theirsFanny was not in the secret of her uncle?s feelings, Sir Thomas not in the secret of Miss Crawford?s characterHad he been privy to her conversation with his son, he would not have wished her to belong to him, though chanel ice cube handbag her twenty thousand pounds had been forty That Edmund must be for ever divided from Miss Crawford did not admit of a doubt with Fanny; and yet, till she knew that he felt the same, her own conviction was insufficientShe thought he did, but she wanted to be assured of itIf he would now speak to her with the unreserve which had sometimes been too much for her before, it would be most consoling; but that she found was not to be She seldom saw him: never aloneHe probably avoided being alone with herWhat was to be inferred? That his judgment submitted to all his own peculiar and bitter share of this family affliction, but that it was too keenly felt to be a subject of the slightest communication This must be his stateHe yielded, but it was with agonies which did not admit of speechLong, long would it be ere Miss Crawford?s name passed his lips again, or she could hope for a renewal of such confidential intercourse as had beenThey reached Mansfield on Thursday, and it was not 397 Jane Austen till Sunday evening that Edmund began to talk to her on the subject Sitting with her on Sunday evening?a wet Sunday evening? the very time of all others when, if a friend is at hand, the heart must be opened, and everything told; no one else in the room, except his mother, who, after hearing an affecting sermon, had cried herself to chanel purse styles sleep, it was impossible not to speak; and so, with the usual beginnings, hardly to be traced as to what came first, and the usual declaration that if she would listen to him for a few minutes, he should be very brief, and certainly never tax her kindness in the same way again; she need not fear a repetition; it would be a subject prohibited entirely: he entered upon the luxury of relating circumstances and sensations of the first interest to himself, to one of whose affectionate sympathy he was quite convinced How Fanny listened, with what curiosity and concern, what pain and what delight, how the agitation of his voice was watched, and how carefully her own eyes were fixed on any object but himself, may be imaginedThe opening was alarmingHe had seen Miss CrawfordHe had been invited to see herHe had received a note from Lady Stornaway to beg him to call; and regarding it as what was meant to be the last, last interview of friendship, and investing her with all the feelings of shame and wretchedness which Crawford?s sister ought to have known, he had gone to her in such a state of mind, so softened, so devoted, as made it for a few moments impossible to Fanny?s fears that it should be the lastBut as he proceeded in his story, these fears were overShe had met him, he said, with a serious?certainly a serious?even an cheap chanel 2.55 bag agitated air; but before he had been able to speak one intelligible sentence, she had introduced the subject in a manner which he owned had shocked him??I heard you were in town,? said she; ?I wanted to see youLet us talk over this sad businessWhat can equal the folly of our two relations?? I could not answer, but I believe my looks spoke Sometimes how quick to feel! With a graver look and voice she then added, ?I do not mean to defend Henry at your sister?s expense So she began, but how she went on, Fanny, is not fit, is hardly fit to be repeated to youI cannot recall all her wordsI would not dwell upon them if I couldTheir substance was great anger at the folly of eachShe reprobated her brother?s folly in being drawn on by a 398 Mansfield Park woman whom he had never cared for, to do what must lose him the woman he adored; but still more the folly of poor Maria, in sacrificing such a situation, plunging into such difficulties, under the idea of being really loved by a man who had long ago made his indifference clearGuess what I must have feltTo hear the woman whom? no harsher name than folly given! So voluntarily, so freely, so coolly to canvass it! No reluctance, no horror, no feminine, shall I say, no modest loathings? This is what the world doesFor where, Fanny, shall we find a woman whom nature had so richly christian dior handbags endowed? Spoilt, spoilt!? After a little reflection, he went on with a sort of desperate calmness ?I will tell you everything, and then have done for everShe saw it only as folly, and that folly stamped only by exposureThe want of common discretion, of caution: his going down to Richmond for the whole time of her being at Twickenham; her putting herself in the power of a servant; it was the detection, in short?oh, Fanny! it was the detection, not the offence, which she reprobatedIt was the imprudence which had brought things to extremity, and obliged her brother to give up every dearer plan in order to fly with her?And what,? said Fanny (believing herself required to speak), ?what could you say?? ?Nothing, nothing to be understoodI was like a man stunnedShe went on, began to talk of you; yes, then she began to talk of you, regretting, as well she might, the loss of such a?There she spoke very rationallyBut she has always done justice to you?He has thrown away,? said she, ?such a woman as he will never see againShe would have fixed him; she would have made him happy for ever My dearest Fanny, I am giving you, I hope, more pleasure than pain by this retrospect of what might have been?but what never can be nowYou do not wish me to be silent? If you do, give me but a look, a word, and I have done No look or word was rolex daytona men's watches g5:22 AM - Wednesday, January 27, 2010
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