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Our confidences in you need not clashThere is...Our confidences in you need not clashThere is something soothing in the idea that we have the same friend, and that whatever unhappy differences of opinion may exist between us, we are united in our love of youIt will be a comfort to me to tell you how things now are, and what are my present plans, if plans I can be said to haveI have been returned since SaturdayI was three weeks in London, and saw her (for London) very oftenI had every attention from the Frasers that could be reasonably expectedI dare say I was not reasonable in carrying with me hopes of an intercourse at all like that of MansfieldIt was her manner, however, rather than any unfrequency of meetingHad she been different when I did see her, I should have made no complaint, but from the very first she 369 Jane Austen was altered: my first reception was so unlike what I had hoped, that I had almost resolved on leaving London again directlyI need not particulariseYou know the weak side of her character, and may imagine the sentiments and expressions which were omega deville watch torturing me She was in high spirits, and surrounded by those who were giving all the support of their own bad sense to her too lively mindShe is a cold-hearted, vain woman, who has married entirely from convenience, and though evidently unhappy in her marriage, places her disappointment not to faults of judgment, or temper, or disproportion of age, but to her being, after all, less affluent than many of her acquaintance, especially than her sister, Lady Stornaway, and is the determined supporter of everything mercenary and ambitious, provided it be only mercenary and ambitious enoughI look upon her intimacy with those two sisters as the greatest misfortune of her life and mineThey have been leading her astray for yearsCould she be detached from them!?and sometimes I do not despair of it, for the affection appears to me principally on their sideThey are very fond of her; but I am sure she does not love them as she loves youWhen I think of her great attachment to you, indeed, and the whole of her judicious, upright conduct as a sister, she chanel classic bags appears a very different creature, capable of everything noble, and I am ready to blame myself for a too harsh construction of a playful mannerI cannot give her up, FannyShe is the only woman in the world whom I could ever think of as a wifeIf I did not believe that she had some regard for me, of course I should not say this, but I do believe itI am convinced that she is not without a decided preferenceI have no jealousy of any individual It is the influence of the fashionable world altogether that I am jealous ofIt is the habits of wealth that I fearHer ideas are not higher than her own fortune may warrant, but they are beyond what our incomes united could authoriseThere is comfort, however, even hereI could better bear to lose her because not rich enough, than because of my professionThat would only prove her affection not equal to sacrifices, which, in fact, I am scarcely justified in asking; and, if I am refused, that, I think, will be the honest motiveHer prejudices, I trust, are not so strong as they wereYou have my thoughts prada black bags exactly as they arise, my dear Fanny; perhaps they are some370 Mansfield Park times contradictory, but it will not be a less faithful picture of my mindHaving once begun, it is a pleasure to me to tell you all I feel I cannot give her upConnected as we already are, and, I hope, are to be, to give up Mary Crawford would be to give up the society of some of those most dear to me; to banish myself from the very houses and friends whom, under any other distress, I should turn to for consolationThe loss of Mary I must consider as comprehending the loss of Crawford and of FannyWere it a decided thing, an actual refusal, I hope I should know how to bear it, and how to endeavour to weaken her hold on my heart, and in the course of a few years?but I am writing nonsenseWere I refused, I must bear it; and till I am, I can never cease to try for her The only question is how? What may be the likeliest means? I have sometimes thought of going to London again after Easter, and sometimes resolved on doing nothing till she returns to MansfieldEven now, buy tan gucci watch she speaks with pleasure of being in Mansfield in June; but June is at a great distance, and I believe I shall write to herI have nearly determined on explaining myself by letterTo be at an early certainty is a material objectMy present state is miserably irksome Considering everything, I think a letter will be decidedly the best method of explanationI shall be able to write much that I could not say, and shall be giving her time for reflection before she resolves on her answer, and I am less afraid of the result of reflection than of an immediate hasty impulse; I think I amMy greatest danger would lie in her consulting MrsFraser, and I at a distance unable to help my own causeA letter exposes to all the evil of consultation, and where the mind is anything short of perfect decision, an adviser may, in an unlucky moment, lead it to do what it may afterwards regretI must think this matter over a littleThis long letter, full of my own concerns alone, will be enough to tire even the friendship of a FannyThe last time I saw Crawford was at tiffany co5:34 AM - Tuesday, January 26, 2010
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