| Quite unpractised in such sort of note-writing,
had there been time for scruples and fears as to style she would have
felt them in abundance: but something must be instantly written;
and with only one decided feeling, that of wishing not to appear to
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think anything really intended, she wrote thus, in great trembling
both of spirits and hand?
?I am very much obliged to you, my dear Miss Crawford, for
your kind congratulations, as far as they relate to my dearest William
The rest of your note I know means nothing; but I am so
unequal to anything of the sort, that I hope you will excuse my
begging you to take no farther noticeI have seen too much of Mr
Crawford not to understand his manners; if he understood me as
well, he would, I dare say, behave differentlyI do not know what I
write, but it would be a great favour of you never to mention the
subject againWith thanks for the honour of your note, I remain,
dear Miss Crawford, etc
The conclusion was scarcely intelligible from increasing fright,
for she found that MrCrawford, under pretence of receiving the
note, was coming towards her
?You cannot think I mean to hurry you,? said he, in an undervoice,
perceiving the amazing trepidation with which she made up the
note, ?you cannot think I have any such objectDo not hurry yourself,
I entreat
?Oh! I thank you; I have quite done, just done; it fake louis vuitton bags will be ready in
a moment; I am very much obliged to you; if you will be so good as
to give that to Miss Crawford
The note was held out, and must be taken; and as she instantly
and with averted eyes walked towards the fireplace, where sat the
others, he had nothing to do but to go in good earnest
Fanny thought she had never known a day of greater agitation,
both of pain and pleasure; but happily the pleasure was not of a sort
to die with the day; for every day would restore the knowledge of
William?s advancement, whereas the pain, she hoped, would return
no moreShe had no doubt that her note must appear excessively
ill-written, that the language would disgrace a child, for her distress
had allowed no arrangement; but at least it would assure them both
of her being neither imposed on nor gratified by MrCrawford?s
attentions
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CHAPTER XXXII
FANNY HAD BY NO MEANS forgotten MrCrawford when she awoke
the next morning; but she remembered the purport of her note,
and was not less sanguine as to its effect than she had been the
night beforeCrawford would but go away! That was what
she most earnestly desired: go and take his sister with him, as he
was to do, and as he returned to Mansfield on purpose to doAnd
why it was not done already she could not devise, for Miss Crawford
certainly wanted no delayFanny had hoped, in the course of his
yesterday?s miu miu charm leather bag visit, to hear the day named; but he had only spoken of
their journey as what would take place ere long
Having so satisfactorily settled the conviction her note would convey,
she could not but be astonished to see MrCrawford, as she
accidentally did, coming up to the house again, and at an hour as
early as the day beforeHis coming might have nothing to do with
her, but she must avoid seeing him if possible; and being then on
her way upstairs, she resolved there to remain, during the whole of
his visit, unless actually sent for; and as MrsNorris was still in the
house, there seemed little danger of her being wanted
She sat some time in a good deal of agitation, listening, trembling,
and fearing to be sent for every moment; but as no footsteps
approached the East room, she grew gradually composed, could sit
down, and be able to employ herself, and able to hope that Mr
Crawford had come and would go without her being obliged to
know anything of the matter
Nearly half an hour had passed, and she was growing very comfortable,
when suddenly the sound of a step in regular approach was
heard; a heavy step, an unusual step in that part of the house: it was
her uncle?s; she knew it as well as his voice; she had trembled at it as
often, and began to tremble again, at the idea of his coming up to
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speak to her, whatever might be the subjectIt was chanel purse styles indeed Sir Thomas
who opened the door and asked if she were there, and if he
might come inThe terror of his former occasional visits to that
room seemed all renewed, and she felt as if he were going to examine
her again in French and English
She was all attention, however, in placing a chair for him, and
trying to appear honoured; and, in her agitation, had quite overlooked
the deficiencies of her apartment, till he, stopping short as
he entered, said, with much surprise, ?Why have you no fire today??
There was snow on the ground, and she was sitting in a shawl
?I am not cold, sir: I never sit here long at this time of year
?But you have a fire in general??
?No, sir
?How comes this about? Here must be some mistakeI understood
that you had the use of this room by way of making you
perfectly comfortableIn your bedchamber I know you cannot
have a fireHere is some great misapprehension which must be
rectifiedIt is highly unfit for you to sit, be it only half an hour a
day, without a fireYour aunt
cannot be aware of this
Fanny would rather have been silent; but being obliged to speak,
she could not forbear, in justice to the aunt she loved best, from
saying something in which the words ?my aunt Norris? were distinguishable
?I understand,? cried her uncle, recollecting himself, and not wanting
to hear more: ?I understandYour aunt Norris has always been
an advocate, vintage cartier ladies watch and very judiciously, for young people?s being brought
up without unnecessary indulgences; but there should be moderation
in everythingShe is also very hardy herself, which of course
will influence her in her opinion of the wants of othersAnd on
another account, too, I can perfectly comprehendI know what her
sentiments have always beenThe principle was good in itself, but it
may have been, and I believe has been, carried too far in your caseI
am aware that there has been sometimes, in some points, a misplaced
distinction; but I think too well of you, Fanny, to suppose
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you will ever harbour resentment on that accountYou have an understanding
which will prevent you from receiving things only in
part, and judging partially by the eventYou will take in the whole
of the past, you will consider times, persons, and probabilities, and
you will feel that they were not least your friends who were educating
and preparing you for that mediocrity of condition which seemed
to be your lotThough their caution may prove eventually unnecessary,
it was kindly meant; and of this you may be assured, that every
advantage of affluence will be doubled by the little privations and
restrictions that may have been imposedI am sure you will not
disappoint my opinion of you, by failing at any time to treat your
aunt Norris with the respect and attention that are due to rolex datejust oyster h |