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"Hello," I said again"My name is Edgar Freemantle, and I'm probably not going to be very good at thisIn my other life I was in the building tradeI knew I was good at that, because I landed jobsIn my current life I paint pictures But nobody said anything about public speaking This time the laughter was a little freer and a little more general "I was going to start by saying I have no idea how I wound up here, but actually I doAnd that's good, because it's all I have to tellYou see, I don't know anything about art history, art theory, or even art appreciationSome of you probably know Mary Ire 588 This brought a chuckle, as if I'd said Some of you may have heard of Andy WarholThe lady herself looked around, preening a little, her back ramrod straight "When I chanel tote first brought some of my paintings into the Scoto Gallery, MsIre saw them and called me an American primitiveI sort of resented that, because I change my underwear every morning and brush my teeth every night before I go to bed-" Another burst of laughterMy legs were just legs again, not cement, and now that I felt capable of running away, I no longer wanted or needed toIt was possible they'd hate my pictures, but that was all right because I didn't hate themLet them have their little laugh, their little boo-and-hiss, their little gasp of distaste (or their little yawn), if that was what they wanted to do; when it was over, I could go back and paint more And if they loved them? Same deal "But if she meant I'm someone who's doing something he doesn't prada replica handbags understand, that he can't express in words because no one ever taught him the right terms, then she's right 589 Kamen was nodding and looking pleasedAnd so, by God, was Mary Ire "So all that leaves is the story of how I got here - the bridge I walked over to get from my other life to the one I'm living these days Kamen was patting his meaty hands together soundlesslyThat made me feel goodHaving him there made me feel goodI don't know exactly what would have happened if he hadn't've been, but I think it would have been what Wireman calls mucho feo - very ugly "But I have to keep it simple, because my friend Wireman says that when it comes to the past, we all stack the deck, and I believe that's true Tell too much and you find yourselftelling the past you wished fake gucci fabric for?" I looked down and saw Wireman was nodding "Yeah, I think so, the one you wished forSo simply put, what happened is this: I had an accident at a job siteThere was this crane, you see, and it crushed the pickup truck I was in, and it crushed me, as wellI lost my right arm and I almost lost my lifeI was married, but my marriage broke upI was at my 590 wits' endThis is a thing I see more clearly now; I only knew then that I felt very, very bad Another friend, a man named Xander Kamen, asked me one day if anything made me happyKamen looked up intently from the first row with the long gift-box balanced on his non-lap I remembered him that day at Lake Phalen - the tatty briefcase, the cold autumn sunshine coming and going in diagonal stripes across the living room cheap mulberry handbags floorI remembered thinking about suicide, and the myriad roads leading into the dark: turnpikes and secondary highways and shaggy little forgotten lanes The silence was spinning out, but I no longer dreaded itAnd my audience seemed not to mindIt was natural for my mind to wander "The idea of happiness - at least as it applied to me - was something I hadn't thought of in a long time," I said"I thought of supporting my family, and after I started my own company, I thought of not letting down the people who worked for meI also thought of becoming a success, and worked for it, mostly because so many people expected me to 591 failThen the accident happenedI discovered I had no-" I reached out for the word I wanted, groping with both hands, although they only saw omega de ville watches

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